And this is after taking Ambien...how can I possibly still be this coherent? NOOOOO, it can't be enough to have a raging headache, now I am staring blankly at the walls, unable to sleep. At least before when I had insomnia, interesting and somewhat important thoughts came to my head that would later become photo projects or lifestyle changes - but now, it is nothing but mush in there.
I must learn to convince my brain that it will not miss anything by getting a few hours of sleep a night....
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
MIGRAINE 101
Today's visit to the neurologist went exactly as expected; there is no other medication that we can try to fight the migraines - the next step is an inpatient migraine clinic or botox. Either course of action requires an approval from the insurance company, which of course is where everything will become a big giant mess. I am hoping against hope that it will not become a fight and that they will not scream "pre-existing condition" and refuse to treat it outright, thus preventing me from getting ANY treatment, including the medication I am already taking that keeps the headaches down to a somewhat dull roar.
The fact that the insurance companies have become evil corporate monsters who try their best to avoid treating patients for anything if they can help it disgusts me beyond belief. It took my primary care doctor threatening and yelling at a previous insurance company for me to even be able to be referred to a neurologist for the migraines to begin with...I was lucky to have a halfway-decent insurance company at the time that said neurologist gave up and referred me to my current one, who is one of the top guys in the country (it is good to have a research university nearby).
So once again, I am back to square one - hoping that a new course of treatment can be found that will help me keep from going completely insane from the pain. My coworkers and friends will be crossing their fingers as well, I am sure, just so they don't need to deal with me being surly from being in pain. I am also sure they are tired of me being "stupid" since I am not able to complete thoughts or ideas or even sentences at this point. I am not used to this anymore; I had really thought that we had control of this with the preventatives I have been taking, and it really stinks that I am right back where I started. :(
The fact that the insurance companies have become evil corporate monsters who try their best to avoid treating patients for anything if they can help it disgusts me beyond belief. It took my primary care doctor threatening and yelling at a previous insurance company for me to even be able to be referred to a neurologist for the migraines to begin with...I was lucky to have a halfway-decent insurance company at the time that said neurologist gave up and referred me to my current one, who is one of the top guys in the country (it is good to have a research university nearby).
So once again, I am back to square one - hoping that a new course of treatment can be found that will help me keep from going completely insane from the pain. My coworkers and friends will be crossing their fingers as well, I am sure, just so they don't need to deal with me being surly from being in pain. I am also sure they are tired of me being "stupid" since I am not able to complete thoughts or ideas or even sentences at this point. I am not used to this anymore; I had really thought that we had control of this with the preventatives I have been taking, and it really stinks that I am right back where I started. :(
Monday, August 15, 2005
My First REAL Post
My thoughts are jumbled today, Mercury in retrograde for the last day (thank god), so bear with me.
1) Hats off to Paul Hackett, the Marine who ran for office in Ohio on the Democratic ticket in a 70% Republican district and took 49% of the vote. He has the conservatives in the RNC and the pundits on the radio and newspapers all in a tither. Rush Limbaugh tried to be his usual arrogant self-aggrandizing self by calling Hackett a "staff puke" on his show...Hackett responded by stating that Limbaugh is a "fatass drug addict" who basically wouldn't know patriotism if it bit him in his forementioned fat ass. Just what the Dems need...a representative of the party (in addition to Howard Dean, who everyone thinks is crazy but is really crazy like a fox) who is willing to say exactly what he thinks and is willing to fight back when the nutwings on the right try to slime him!
Interesting how the right-wing pundits are all about "supporting the troops" and the veterans of the Iraq war unless the said person happens to be a Democrat running for office, eh?
2) My thoughts and support to Cindy Sheehan, the mother of a fallen soldier who is keeping vigil outside of "not my president's" Crawford, Texas ranch until he will speak to her or until his extremely long vacation is over, whichever comes first (we all know hell will freeze over before he will talk to her again). Again, the right wingnuts are trying to slander this poor woman in her grief...of course she could never possibly have been in shock when she met with the president right after her son was killed in the war, thus precipitating her saying that she didn't harbor any ill feelings toward the war or the president at that time. Of course, we as humans are not allowed to change our minds as time progresses and further information comes to light either - then we are "flip-floppers" according to our president and his cadre of slimy slanderers.
3) Some of my friends are obsessed with the baby panda at the National Zoo. They spend I don't know how much time each day watching the "Panda Vision" camera monitors online to look at the little bugger. It's much better now that it actually looks like something other than a blob - at least now you can tell it is a panda. Before, I couldn't really get into the excitement of it all...the muddy images of a blob of something that might be the little critter (wait, is that it? No, that's just the mom's butt!) (Sue, I told you I just had to mention this!).
4) Finally, my friend Ryan has an audition for a movie in Atlanta tomorrow; break a leg, babe!
1) Hats off to Paul Hackett, the Marine who ran for office in Ohio on the Democratic ticket in a 70% Republican district and took 49% of the vote. He has the conservatives in the RNC and the pundits on the radio and newspapers all in a tither. Rush Limbaugh tried to be his usual arrogant self-aggrandizing self by calling Hackett a "staff puke" on his show...Hackett responded by stating that Limbaugh is a "fatass drug addict" who basically wouldn't know patriotism if it bit him in his forementioned fat ass. Just what the Dems need...a representative of the party (in addition to Howard Dean, who everyone thinks is crazy but is really crazy like a fox) who is willing to say exactly what he thinks and is willing to fight back when the nutwings on the right try to slime him!
Interesting how the right-wing pundits are all about "supporting the troops" and the veterans of the Iraq war unless the said person happens to be a Democrat running for office, eh?
2) My thoughts and support to Cindy Sheehan, the mother of a fallen soldier who is keeping vigil outside of "not my president's" Crawford, Texas ranch until he will speak to her or until his extremely long vacation is over, whichever comes first (we all know hell will freeze over before he will talk to her again). Again, the right wingnuts are trying to slander this poor woman in her grief...of course she could never possibly have been in shock when she met with the president right after her son was killed in the war, thus precipitating her saying that she didn't harbor any ill feelings toward the war or the president at that time. Of course, we as humans are not allowed to change our minds as time progresses and further information comes to light either - then we are "flip-floppers" according to our president and his cadre of slimy slanderers.
3) Some of my friends are obsessed with the baby panda at the National Zoo. They spend I don't know how much time each day watching the "Panda Vision" camera monitors online to look at the little bugger. It's much better now that it actually looks like something other than a blob - at least now you can tell it is a panda. Before, I couldn't really get into the excitement of it all...the muddy images of a blob of something that might be the little critter (wait, is that it? No, that's just the mom's butt!) (Sue, I told you I just had to mention this!).
4) Finally, my friend Ryan has an audition for a movie in Atlanta tomorrow; break a leg, babe!
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Help us all....
They are actually giving me a space for my rants...The world is not ready for this!!!
Keep checking back...you may be surprised.
Keep checking back...you may be surprised.
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